I start this post with not a topic in mind, but a feeling. As I write, I'm not sure where I'm going exactly, but I'll just take a swing at it. Or maybe I'll just wing it.
It's my third year in Viçosa now and sometimes people are so surprised to still see me here. I myself surprise myself when I pause to think - what am I still doing here? I think I've been winging it for the last few years, taking it one step at a time and walking through the open door. That being said, I still have my moments where I'm not sure what I am doing here. I didn't expect this 9 month trip to turn into a third year, but here I am. When I get too lost in the thoughts of the future, when people ask me - so after you finish your Master's, what are you going to do? - when I just don't know, I like to pause and feel my pulse. It's a simple gesture that brings me back to the present moment, a moment that doesn't involve anyone but me, myself and my pulse. This pulse can go anywhere and as long as it goes, I am also going to go. I have my moments where I want to stop pedaling, where it feels like it would just be easier to stop pedaling, but then it wouldn't be as easy to feel my pulse would it?
Swing, batter batter, I may be winging it, but I'm still up to bat! Maybe after all is said and done, my greatest talent will be making terrible wordplay posts. If I got you to smile, I've at least done something with this keyboard.
It's my third year in Viçosa now and sometimes people are so surprised to still see me here. I myself surprise myself when I pause to think - what am I still doing here? I think I've been winging it for the last few years, taking it one step at a time and walking through the open door. That being said, I still have my moments where I'm not sure what I am doing here. I didn't expect this 9 month trip to turn into a third year, but here I am. When I get too lost in the thoughts of the future, when people ask me - so after you finish your Master's, what are you going to do? - when I just don't know, I like to pause and feel my pulse. It's a simple gesture that brings me back to the present moment, a moment that doesn't involve anyone but me, myself and my pulse. This pulse can go anywhere and as long as it goes, I am also going to go. I have my moments where I want to stop pedaling, where it feels like it would just be easier to stop pedaling, but then it wouldn't be as easy to feel my pulse would it?
Swing, batter batter, I may be winging it, but I'm still up to bat! Maybe after all is said and done, my greatest talent will be making terrible wordplay posts. If I got you to smile, I've at least done something with this keyboard.
